I often heard and saw, happily and lovely couples have been through together for 3 or more years, laugh and cry together, but not ended happily in marriage.. I can’t keep asking why to myself, are they faking their happiness? Faking their love? Or are they pretending to be someone else, in order to fulfill the demand of their partner? Or are they just meet someone perfectly? No one will know the answer, except the couple itself, no one knows each other perfectly, and no one loves each other perfectly like father to his son, or mother to her daughter.. No one.. We learn, we get information, we get knowledge, we change every second, every minutes and every time.. Maybe, I will not ask God to keep my love, but I will ask God to keep me on His track until the end of time..


Call me maybe – Carly Rae Jepsen


These dialog was held when Irene Adler pretend to die, but both Sherlock and Mycroft Holmes believed that Irene truly died..

Sherlock Holmes: Look at them. They all care so much. Do you ever wonder if there’s something wrong with us?
Mycroft Holmes: All lives end. All hearts are broken. Caring is not an advantage, Sherlock.
Sherlock Holmes: This is low tar.
Mycroft Holmes: Well, you barely knew her.

Well, no one know others perfectly πŸ™‚

Shakira – Whenever wherever


It was yesterday.. when I woke up in early morning, too early to pray.. and I open my door, looking for a meal in my fridge.. nothing found except chocolate.. then I eat one by one, in the darkness in front my room, with talking to the fullmoon shining through the trees..

It was yesterday, when I try to forget all have done by playing piano instrument, but it was never help me getting better, only make me worse.. just pushing in the thorn in my flesh, deeper and deeper.. until I can’t take it out.. always be there..

It was not you, who make all of this mess.. it’s always me, and always be me.. haven’t you heard that I’m gonna be okay? because you are so yesterday πŸ˜€

Hillary Duff – So Yesterday…

One step made..

These are the different of the way I’m teaching in my Class from the first solo Class..

In my first solo class..
– I always called them one by one, before I start the Class > I think it is little bit childish for college students, isn’t it?
– I frequently noted who will be the most active student in my Class, so I can recognize them well, in the end of Class.. or the next courses in the next semester..
– Doing the perfect things, always be my ambition.. I don’t want even one my student don’t understood my explanation in Class.. Except for outlier student who made a ‘big’ mistake with me personally xD

In my recently class..
– They already grown up, if they choose to make a mistake or doing unfair things, let them get the consequences.. I should not treat them as children who can not make a single mistake. I think, they would learn a lot from their choice, the bad or good one..
– I rarely take a note right now, I think they would misinterpret, if they should be active in the Class is because I will take a note and upgrade their final score.. At the beginning, I think that it is a good trigger for them, lately, I think more than note or score but making a good behavior.. So, I will not take a detailed note anymore, I just remembered the active students in my Class naturally..
– Soon after I taught Calculus and Linear Algebra, I change my opinion, that not everybody deserved for the same thing.. Everyone has their preference to study, I think it is acceptable, if you get the lowest grade of math subject, and you get the highest grade of sports.. So, I won’t make it difficult for them, who don’t really interested in my area or my courses πŸ™‚ All you need to do is just exploring yourself in which specific area you will enjoyed, your life will not only about Information System.. you should learn many things others.

Owl City – The Bird and The Worm

then suddenly, all that stupid questions don’t mean a thing to me.. it is true, that God already have led me into good reason, why I should knowing you more than the others.. it’s because, I have to grow up and be stronger than before..


Mandy Moore – Cry

Suddenly, I know why my mom say ‘no’ to me..
I know, what people think of me..
and what should they react..
or why they do such annoying things..

no one told me, I just feel it that way..
It’s not about what I have learned, but it’s about time and age..
I shouldn’t try each perfume..

you were right, if I already found the best one,
why should I waste my time just to reinvent what I have found?
to make sure that I was doing the right thing?
It has not to be right, sometimes we led into something wrong, and find the right way back home..

We were both young, when I first saw you ~ Love Story (Taylor Swift)