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Still the moon..

X: Have you sleep?
Y: I still wake up..
X: Look at the moon, it’s eclipse!
Y: I still on the road, just wait me 5 minutes..
X: Ok, I’m waiting you here..
Y: Hey, I already see the eclipsed moon..
X: So beautiful..
Y: He em, but I love the full moon, that we saw days ago, so big and so yellow..
X: I’m afraid we couldn’t see it anymore..
Y: *It’s alright, I always see it in my mind..

Just a kiss goodnight..

This story took a long time, before I could write it in my blog..

Last month I went to my brother’s house in Jakarta, my little nieces grow so fast, Achi the eldest niece not childish anymore, she rarely got a tantrum.. Iza, her younger sister was able to imitate dance and sing like her elder sister 🙂 I felt so happy, happier than the last time I visited them last year..

Let me tell you about Achi, she loves to sing, lip-sync and create dance that suit with the theme song, I believe she will grow up to nice lady someday 🙂 We surprised, when achi perform her own dancing in front of us, and I’m gonna cry! Although I’m not her mom, but I feel that she already make a good achievement.. In her age, I already took a second year of Elementary School, but I think it’s my mom’s achievement 🙂 I didn’t like choreography, or all things related to body movement such as dancing and doing any kind of sport. I hate all those things since I kids :p

Back to Achi, beside her creative talent has increased, her understanding about life is well improved, this is our conversation after praying Dhuhur together..

Achi: Aunty, I heard that you’ll gonna marry..
Aunty: Yes, that’s right..
Achi: Achi really want to hold aunty’s baby.. Achi promises will take care him/her..
Aunty: Wow, Achi already has Iza to take care of, right?
Achi: But, I want your baby.. *Achi hug me*
Aunty: *speechless*

One day, Achi came out with her idea to design a new hijab style, yes you’re right she also took my veil and dress to design, beside her mom’s 😀

Achi: Aunty! Look at me! I wear a beautiful hijab like yours! (actually, that’s mine achi >.<)
Aunty: *try to look surprised* Wow! You’re beautiful, how about put in some brooch?
Achi: Yes! I will! *she puts her own brooch at my veil*
Achi: Granny! Look at me! Am I beautiful?
Granny: No! Too much brooch, and too much color, you look so bad with that dress and veil! How about wear this hijab (the white and simple one). You look prettier when you wear this hijab. Just take it off!
Achi: But, Achi doesn’t like that plain veil Granny, it’s too plain.. (Achi looks sad)
Granny: No! No! Just wear it! And put it off! Granny doesn’t like to see you wearing cosmetic and all those things!
Achi: *she run into her room*

I follow Achi, I guess she will change her veil, and she surely change it.. But..

Achi: *she cried without make any voice*
Aunty:  Achi, are you okay?
Achi: I’m so sad, when granny say that I look so bad..
Aunty: *hold her*
Achi: am I look that bad, aunty?
Aunty: no, granny just trying to make you look prettier, with her style.. eh don’t you know that the beautiful things will only just thing, if you don’t have the real one..
Achi: what the real one?
Aunty: you already have it, don’t you know Achi?
Achi: *she’s not cried anymore* I don’t know..
Aunty: loving your mom, dad and Iza, and playing cheerfully with granny and grandpa, also have some cups of achievement like yours, and always smile.. (sounds cliché and sounds not me T.T)
Achi: so, I already become a beautiful girl without those pretty dress and veil?
Aunty: Those entire things only make you prettier, because you already have it 🙂
Achi: I love you aunty *hug me once more*, but I still want to be a designer..
Aunty: Okey then, let’s start designing with the plain veil..

Iza still be the one of my favorites, because I feel the same fate with her.. but Achi is better than me, when I’m in her age.. a lot.. I ever read, that crying without make any voices is the saddest cry, I felt so sinful when knowing her saddest cry.. I thought it is her first rude rejection from someone close to her, I afraid that the rejection will crack her innocent heart, so she wouldn’t design anymore..

But, recently I think maybe some rejections will make her heart stronger than before, and we couldn’t take care of her heart whenever and wherever right? Maybe, she will easily forget about it.. All we need is just to give her a kiss goodnight, and hoping that tomorrow is better than today 🙂

~ Lady Antebellum – Just a Kiss ~

The most romantic word..

The most romantic word I’ve ever heard is not ‘I love you’ or ‘I miss you’, but..

This morning I heard a couple talked in cellphone..
Girl: Darl, I want to laundry my dirty clothes.. I will call you later..
Boy: How many?
Girl: I don’t know exactly, honey.. But I haven’t done laundry in 3 weeks..
Boy: Wow, I guess it’s so many enough to make you tired..
Girl: I think so..
Boy: Okay, have a nice activity dear, but please don’t push yourself to do them all, do not get too tired, we can make someone else done it for you..
Girl: Thank you dear..

 

Hint: the italic sentence 😀

it’s simple but have a deep meaning for her..

 

Owl City & Carly Rae Jepsen – Good Time

Love is..

I just heard a news, I’m not surprised, I have predicted that this situation probably happen in the future.. and that’s true..
I’m trying to understand, but I will think another positive effect from this news 🙂
I can continue my study without considering any circumtances here! yay!

I’m gonna take IELTS test!
I will make research planning study!
I’m gonna search the best professor!
and I will apply PhD study!

Bismillah..

NB: Yes, that is true, that loving is giving without hoping the benefits..

Chrisye – Setia

What to expect, when you are expecting..

My mom will 55 years old in this August, but many people said that my mom looks like my elder sister 🙂
Yesterday I wore my mom’s blouse, it’s orange and I hate orange, but I still wore it all day, even when I went to bed..
She bought that blouse when she was in my age, my mom’s fashion senses is awesome, because no one knows that I’m wearing my mom’s stuff..

I don’t know why, I can’t show this homesick feelings to her, I just pretend everything went okay when she asked my condition yesterday, I called my father’s cellphone and I just said ‘I want to talk with mom’, so my father gave the phone to my mom..

I just pretend to forget her order that she said a week ago, and we have a long chat.. this feeling is getting worse when last night I saw a movie ‘What to expect, when you are expecting’, this movie telling us about parents’ sacrifices to have a child, I never know how it feels, until I become a mom 🙂

I often said to my mamas, that I don’t want to have any child, but deep inside my heart I want to feel our little miracle moving inside my body and soul.. I’m just scaring, if we couldn’t be the best parent for them, and we already too late to know about it..

Well, they will come at the right time 😀 so, I shouldn’t worry too much, because it will steal my happiness 😀 no body is ready to be the best parent 🙂

The Vow

This movie is so tragic, when your love and your passion suddenly disappear, will you have a single logical reason to choose the same person as your partner of life?

The big question in our short life, it doesn’t matter if you don’t have a logical reason, I think you only just haven’t found it yet..

But really, you have to find it soon, before your memory loss suddenly by tragic accident like this movie, otherwise you will choose another person in your life, because you have a second chance and no body will blame or judge you as a player 🙂

And this is my silly opinion, if you choose the same person as before like the storyline of this movie, I think you already found your partner of life with your mind and your heart…

..you make it easier, when life gets hard.. Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat ~ Lucky
..you are the best thing that`s ever been mine.. Taylor Swift ~ Mine