I have been asking many times to myself, why I miss my daughter so much. She is still alive, and she’s there living happily with her grandparents.
Why should I miss her so deeply then?
That’s because I put so much love for her, more than love for myself.
Next month, I will meet her, for sure 🙂
I have to be happy and motivated enough to pass this last journey very well.
Have you ever feel so much sadness that even you can’t have a single tear coming out from your eyes which makes your throat in pain?
Until you feel that you are unsteady when you walk alone in the crowd. You can see things clearly, throw some arguments, jokes, but your mind is not there.
I never know that being a mother means that you have to endure this kind of pain when your kid is not around you. I never know that before.
Have you ever been in love before?
which makes you feel completely nothing without the person whom you’re in love with?
which makes you unable to take a breath when she/he is not around you?
which makes you sacrifice everything you have just to meet with her/him?
which makes you accept any kind of conditions, sick or healthy, or even you haven’t met her/him in person (because it is still a fetus in your womb)?
Then the question is changed to, are you going to let yourself fall in that kind of love after knowing the risk of missing or losing her/him from your sight?
I will always say YES.
This is the art of giving your heart to someone else besides yourself.
do all mothers feel the same way with me?
Lukas Graham – Love Someone
“Retno, you are so strong!”
That’s because you never know that almost every night I feel so weak and fragile with this broken heart. And, I wake up in the next morning, hoping that it is just a dream, but, it is not, this is the reality. And, I don’t have any other options other than being strong until the day I meet my daughter and my husband. That makes me look strong outside.