Yesterday was a very bright and sunny day. I took a journey from home to campus to meet my supervisor. I took Dublin Bus because I missed the sense of traveling using Dublin Bus. I was not in a hurry anyway.
At the bus stop, there were one lady and one man, they’re together. There were only three of us. The lady said to the man, “why is she wearing a raincoat on this bright and sunny day?”. The man looked at me, “weird”. I was the only one who is wearing a raincoat.
I assumed that they were not talking about me. Perhaps, they were talking about someone else.
The bus came, and we got on to the bus. I tapped my leap card as usual and chose to stand at the wheelchair space. I put all my belongings on the floor but kept them using my feet.
Again, the lady said to the man, “she is a Trinity student”.
The man, “how do you know?”
The lady replied, “I peeked at her leap card”
I assumed that they were talking about someone else. There are lots of Trinity students. It was a warm day especially inside the bus, so, I took off my raincoat, folded it, and put it in my bag.
“She put off her raincoat, I like her style now”
“Yes, she looks relax”
“But she is still holding on”
“I think she prepares for any condition, she wears a raincoat because today might rainy, she is still holding on because the bus is moving while she is standing”
Then, I observed the entire bus. Only me standing in the wheelchair space. I took my earphone out of my bag and play music.
If this happens during my period days or during days when I tempt to ‘play around’, this event will be taken as…
“Why are you talking about me!! Why!!”
If this happens during my gloomy days, this event will be taken as…
“What’s wrong with my raincoat? is it too bad? too cheap? why is it so wrong to wear a raincoat on the bright and sunny day? next time I won’t wear this raincoat anymore.”
If this happens during my good days or my busy days, this event will be taken as…
“Oh, they just spending their time to talk about me, they love me so much.. they are completely stranger but they care me so much, thanks! I didn’t know that I am so good.”
Since they do not talk to me directly, so I don’t have to explain why I use raincoat on a very bright and sunny day. If they ask, I will surely explain the reason: because that is the only thing that I have to keep me warm, it is not too heavy, and I can fold it and store it in my bag when I feel warmer.
Why should I explain this to people who don’t even ask me directly?
Anyway, what others think about me is none of my business. Even when the lady peeked into my student leap card to get to know me more is also none of my business. I will give her my student number or my full name if she wants to know me more, but, she has to ask me in person to obtain that details because it is private information.
Poison & Wine – The Civil Wars